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Vietnam Conflict I read “a soldiers story” in the Sunday UL Parade Today. When I first came back from the Vietnam Conflict it was great the Joy of Being Home, a place that I from one of my injuries had no memory of ever being in the USA before. A year or so back and the welcome soon became astonishment to my spontaneous reactions and my continuous miss understandings of things happing around me. The noise so close of explosions, Rifle fire and jet blast destroyed most of my hearing in both ears leaving miss interpretations of most conversations. The pain from the broken vertebra in my lower back made working very painful. The TBI soon was complicated by the flashbacks to a place no one should live through became the thorn to friends and family starting to isolated the now apparent person that wasted so much potential. This US Marine came back and was just dropped off into a world with no means to recognize or cope with disabilities. The MC and VA were trying to not have to acknowledge avoiding paying for out of a limited budget. I had the feeling of isolation and powerlessness just as described in Kevin Powers book. It seems every war to some degree all that have been go through these I call different worlds unable to accept. It seems every war the civilized society we return to, tells the public they are going to correct the wrongs done to these men and women coming back recognizing what was done to the US Military Veterans from the last war. Today these very same rejection, isolation, homelessness is happening because this civilized society just cannot conceive the horrors of living years like we did and do. Like Kevin I wrote a book “Marine Corps Gallantry of Psychosis” by Sgt Macdonald. The book was mostly so that my three daughters would have in future years a reason for why I was like I am. I did give many copies away to libraries and friends. It never leaves or stops happening as my sixth birthday passed. The rejection from the miss understanding comes from all walks of life in this civilized society. Tabor of the Portsmouth Herald asked me as a candidate for NH State Senate to fill out questions for the paper to publish. Three times I have filled out these questions and gave them to the paper. Once I brought the answers to the front desk and hand delivered the answers. My name is on a list of candidate’s that did not answer the questions and I bet that is what the paper reports to the voters. To censor our words makes rejection and isolation because you see us as a danger as repetitive and nonsense to justify what is the norm that we live with. My wife and I spent our life savings and mortgaged our home to the hilt to purchase eleven-acres of Waterfront property to build a Veteran Resort Chapel for these very Veterans described here. Cabins in the woods free of charge for those that need a place to live just to attempt to come home. The newspapers refuse to inform the public for the danger that they say I am. I read a story in the Parade paper today of what many have said after each conflict or war to what is the known uncivilized actions bestowed on those trying to come home. Censoring our words is a sure way to continue through ignorance that what we live with every day of our lives. I hope John Tabor editor of the Portsmouth Herald gets his answers as it has become clear he just will not accept what I have written. Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi 465 Packers falls rd Lee NH 03824 603-781-3839