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I must be wrong My coming back from the Vietnam conflict with four disabilities made it clear that I do not belong here. I do not feel sorry for myself for I have done many things most of you will never have a chance or even the ability to conceive as possible. I see death differently than most citizens back here. My opposition to violence has to come from what I have done and seen as surly it did not come from this civilized society. The one thing that I wish that I could do is remembered my family that they say raised me as a child. It was easy when I first came back because if you have no memory of it, it just is some place or thing that is new in your life. The longer that I am alive and the more that I see my children grow learning what is wrong come down to me. I perceive things differently as my only child hood memory is that of a 17-year-old US Marine fighting to stay alive while defending a nation that I had no memory of but one day hoped to be alive to see. Days out in a third world country living in the filth and crowded homes of the locals deep in the bush while American Advisor on convoy delivering surplus supplies to friendly posts made me believe that is what back here was. After a few months over there my short-term memory of leaving the states was gone as if this is life. The survival skills instilled in thirty one months over seas back here I learned cannot even be talked about with out some kind of judgment being directed at you. VA doctors say talk about it and it will be better but they have no idea for they were never there. I feel as if I am going to cry and we all know US Marine’s do not cry. I have no medical care for this or my other three service-connected disabilities as punishment for writing opinion letters of government wrongs. I violated the orders by government officials to stop writing letters bringing this punishment on myself. Coming back alive was clearly the wrong thing to do. I am running for NH State Senate District 21 and the newspapers for the safety of the community censor my every word. My wife and I spent our life savings and mortgaged our home to the hilt to help other US Military Veterans in the same sinking ship as me and the editors tell everyone it is an election ploy. This civilized society boosts about wanting to help US Military Veterans but no effort to even inform the pubic of the truth will the newspapers print. The NH Government and VA stop my medical care in direct violation of our Constitution and the ability to inform society is censored to protect the elite part of society with good reputations from being harmed. The pride I feel for my first kill to get my M-16 back and keep the convoy on it’s mission even the VA doctors look down on me when the fact of the child killed looked less that 12. The guilt of lying in the benjo ditch still while the enemy patrol passed with in inches of me I rationalized by believing getting back to my convoy was more important than dying trying to light up the enemy. I should have done my job and died that day killing as many as I could before being killed. It has been made clear coming back was wrong. Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper fi 465 Packers falls rd Lee NH 03824 603-781-3839