deadly cost of freedom

Deadly cost of freedom
I want, I need, I have no time are words people prefer not to hear. Volunteering to help other people in life is one of the most wanted but neglected social skills in the civilized society. Our society thrives on cheap or free labor. Volunteering to help is a form of free labor as others want to take advantage of such help. Rich people, poor people, Black people and white people all need someone to put out their hand and volunteer some help. Volunteering from the heart is a form of greed. MY volunteer help to anyone with out a second thought is payment of all those US citizens that gave their lives for the existence of the USA. I came back alive and for what I have done it should not be. Better with more richer personality and smarts died for what the USA stands as a nation for. They had the right to live to enjoy what we have today.
Miss trust and anger are the first thoughts of the people I just out of the blue start helping. It is impossible for some to see that I want nothing. My needs exist to help others and are mine alone to concur. I have no time with all the pain and PTSD-TBI situations only to set them aside as they are nothing compared to what those that will never come back alive for what they gave for the USA.
This was to be my last letter, the intent as my death has to be the answer to get out of this place. Suicide is not a part of me although it 9is very tempting. I do not need the VA suicide personal harassing me tonight for this letter. I do not need law enforcement to come to my home tonight to harass my family after we go to sleep. I cannot see why people twist what I say to harm my character. Waking up one day with no memory and being live in a combat zone is an adventure no one has the ability to conceive. For the rest of your life to see the blood on the Gook you just pulled the bayonet out of taunts why this civilized society accepts you. People reject my words for what reason they do not hear what I am saying.
I want, I need, I have no time is a civilized society that I hope some day I can volunteer in as a mediator to help them see there is more in life.
My words make no since just like suicide make no since. This civilized society just does not want to stop, look and hear what the people around them are saying unless they can benefit from it. To hear is not interpreting what you want to hear that persons say. To hear is to listen and learn what the other person is saying and the meaning of his words. Freedom is what the US Military gives our lives for.
What the Madbury selectmen are doing to that innocent family just trying to live is wrong. The NH Supreme Court allowed and encouraged Judge Peter Favuer to violate the Constitution to harm US citizens and refused to hear the case with it was presented to the NH SC.
If this is a civilized society show me and let us communicate with out violence and government officials violating the Constitution.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
465 Packers falls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217