bend over

Bend over
Blood rushes from my nose just seconds ago. It happens the other night so I just sat in the chair fell asleep waiting to die. My wife came home found me put a cold compress on it. I woke up to my suppress it had not happen again. My head is spinning and pounding to the beat of my heart. I do not always get a nose bleed with these systems but more times than not I do. A service connected combat related disability from my tour in the USMC. The VA does not treat my disabilities for they are using my Combat related injuries to teach me to obey NH government orders. My complaint letters go unanswered to the VA. It is kind of like those two disabled children under state care that died last winter. Ignore and abuse as long as the needy are unseen. When the public does find out blame the system and tell the public we are correcting these wrongs with legislative action. Stop my medical care until I stop writing opinion letters of government wrongs. If the public gets a hint of what is going on, destroy the US Military Veterans character by informing the public he has mental problems that make him a danger so stay away.
The other day I volunteered to help a person in Maine with some yard work and other things. My back hurt so badly and my head was pounding by the end of the day so I stopped at a bar on the way home. I drank not until the pain went away but I just did not feel the symptoms. How yea my broken back and loss of hearing are two more combat related disabilities to go along with the PTSD and TBI. To volunteer to help others is my responsibility to all those better than I that gave their lives so we can live as we do. Freedom to me is not letting all those heroes that gave everything for the USA to continue to exist not be in VAIN. They are far smarter and better than I and god should have spared their lives over mine. I volunteer to make the USA better for their memory.
The VA stops my medical, our state and federal government ignore, punish me and law enforcement harass my family and friends to isolate me. The newspapers refuse to print my letters of government wrongs. I feel as if being bent over and a telephone is being pushed up there. There are reasons for all my problems such as choosing to sleep instead of stopping the nosebleed. We should have realized back then that I had no right to come back to the “world” USA.
To censor this letter for the graphic nature is understandable. Combat is the same way maybe we should censor that and let the USA be taken over by whom ever. I knowingly choose to sit in the chair the other night not because of the many beers that I drank but so our elected officials could say they were correct about me as the danger they want you to believe that I am will be gone. I am sure the VA suicide hotline and law enforcement will destroy this day so what is the point.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
465 Packers falls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
For the safety of the public censor this letter for help.