Apoligize

Apologize
The VA suicide hotline calls me so much to harass my family and place stress on me to entice suicide I was rude to a caller yesterday. Knowing that I was wrong does not make it right and I hope Ken understands. The VA suicide hotline is both a dangerous organization and a helpful one. In a way my knowledge of suicide is a close one for I have tried it many times while in a flashback. I have no way too see how many times for I do not always remember. I know one time I jumped up from my laying in a benjo ditch to light up the gooks only to come out of my flashback to realize that I just jumped off a cliff. My pant let caught on the top of a 30 to 50 foot birch tree, which lowered me to the ground with just a deep gash in my upper leg. More recently and I do not know if it is because of what the VA or NH Government is doing to my family and friends but I have had it in my mind quite a bit more. The saying the Vietnam Veteran came back to a society that does not want or accept us is so true. The few trying to sway public opinion will tell you that I am looking for pity for what is going on. How many US Military Veterans medical care is cut off as government officials are demonstrating that they are in power. My VA medical for combat related disabilities was stopped to stop my opinion letters just like this one and the newspapers censor anyhow. I hope Ken understands I was not volunteering to talk US Military Veterans out of suicide. My qualification is that I am one of those US Military Veterans caught in a world that I do not belong.
I could never be a part of a government organization that unbeknownst to the workers some times they are used to harass those needing help. The US government is the best in the world. There are some that power goes to their head and others are to scare to speak up. The so-called Blue Wall is the perfect example of a monopoly of the rights of citizens by government powers. The NH Supreme Court refused to hear a case where Judge Peter Fauver criminally violated the Constitution to harm local US citizens. Discrimination by the NH Supreme Court cannot be tolerated. The so-called blue wall of government workers falls in line to protect one of their own from the average citizen. The Madbury NH selectmen use the trusted power of government to take from local residents for their own profit. Judge Fauver knowingly allowed this to continue to this day. The NH SC refused to hear the case to protect a brother judge/attorney of their click. I am put in jail as a terrorist and my VA medical is stopped until I stop writing opinion of wrongs by the NH SC.
The government tells me in a “civilized society communication is used to avoid violence. While driving this morning I passed through that long black tunnel of reality. There is no direction or anything to grab on to. In no way can I support an organization that is a weapon to harm veterans not wanted. I hope you understand Ken. My letters are censored for the danger I am perceived to society so it would be wrong to put any ÜS Military veterans near me. I believe in the United States of American as I took the oath to protect and defend her always. Tell the VA suicide hotline to stop harassing US Military Veterans. We are citizens also.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
465 Packers falls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217