Veterans Suicide hotline

Veterans Suicide Hotline
I read this article in Veterans Today web news. The main problem in our society is that we do nothing until it is to late and only then do we justify our in actions with the remorseful “we should have seen the warning signs. The Veterans Suicide hotline is the biggest taxpayers joke going. I have tried suicide to many times to count since coming back to the world (USA) in 74. My suicide attempts are a flashback state of mind in my other world living events no human being should ever have to live through while protecting and defending our Constitution. The VA solution is to pump US Military Veterans full of medication to take there since of life away while informing the veteran these will help you. The article in the paper today describes how doctors for many years have known that PTSD medication does not work other than dull the mental ability of the patient to enjoy life. What right do doctors have to knowingly take the ability of the citizens that put their lives on the line for our nation away? Living with the pride of killing a child to get my M-16 back and escape conflicts with the people back here that call me a baby killer because I came back alive from the Vietnam Conflict. Constant dreams of lying in a ditch waiting for the enemy to pass because of orders not to lock and load my weapon until eminent danger of death would have gotten me killed before killing the enemy. Ordering my men to do things that we knew would most likely kill them if anything went wrong. Yelling and disciplining the Marine when they hesitated even one second before following my order to their death. The pride that I feel as a US Marine even as the innocent remarks of people back here in every day life question our moral and ethical values for what we did in defiance of the rules of civilized society. Suicide prevention is to allow opinion as this to be printed in US news media for the public to see that what we did (even if uncivilized) was for the future of our nation.
The news Media censoring my opinion for the danger to the public that they want you to believe that I am comes from what I did for the USA. I volunteer to help citizens that I do not even know every day. As a volunteer a judge made me an attorney to represent a Madbury NH family on a zoning issue. Judge Peter Favuer criminally violated the constitution to enable the Madbury selectmen to steal from local residents. The NH Supreme Court refused to hear the case because it exposed criminal wrongs by a brother judge. Through discrimination and/or conflict of interest our state’s highest court violates our Constitution where does a citizen go. The news media refuses to inform the public as the NH government and VA work together to stop my medical care until my opinion letters stop. I did not sleep last night for constant images of the laying in a ditch wanting to die and the steps of the Veterans Administration front door as I blow my brains out with my M-16 awakens the enemy to my position. “We should have seen the warning signs”
The VA and news media are well away of this 100% service connected disabled US Marine’s medical conditions for I write every day and send my letters to over three thousand of them including the VA suicide hotline. They fluff my medical file with unneeded medical appointments in case the facts go public. Even after my death my side will be well stated as my letters go viral.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
465 Packers falls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217