I should have died resonse

I should have died
Recognition of NH to see the jump in suicide alarming is just like the VA saying, “we now see the problem and that is in the past”. What does a person do when no one listens to you? I am not suicidal. My memory of my actions in the USMC (PTSD) or maybe my bruised brain from the TBI right out of Parris Island MC boot camp make me flashback. I am an everyday normal person on the street until a word; event or action triggers me into another world of living my need to die to get out of this place. Alarming that I can write about the very subject being described in the newspaper and radio as a good start to a solution yet no one hears my words. To get treatment for my combat related disabilities an ambulance has to take me to a civilian hospital for the VA refuses to treat me or hear my words. To fluff my medical file in case of investigation general care is given even when I do not ask for it. The editors (All) have claimed me mentally ill and a danger to the public so censoring my opinion of government wrongs is silent. Recognition of government wrongs is apparent but no one wants to listen to the US Military veteran needing help. I speak the truth but listen to all the homeless, divorced, isolated, veterans unable to speak of the wrongs to die in shame for this civilized society will not hear our words of what we did.
The pain in my broken back from during a Vietnam offensive does not stop my need to fit into a society that does not want us. MY loss of hearing in both ears limits my ability to distinguish words that are spoken at us but the memory of being blown off the runway during another Vietnam offensive never leaves. Four service connected disabilities and the USA does not recognize what we did was so this civilized society could exist. The VA uses any excuse to not treat a US Military veteran in need as long as it can look politically correct. Rejection and shame is what causes silence for the pride in our actions of defending and protecting a nation that can no longer accept us. The truth of my words comes from the USA’s ability to censor my words rather than listen to the truth.
My case is government retaliation for my volunteering to help a Madbury NH family. Judge Peter Fauver criminally violated the Constitution to cover up the Madbury NH selectmen using government power to steal from local residents for personal gain. The NH Supreme Court refused to hear the case for it proved criminal wrongs by a brother attorney, judge. The news media does not believe the public should be exposed to a danger they want you to perceive that I am so they censor my words. US Military Veterans are lost and forgotten right in front of our eyes for the public does not listen, as this is why they do not see.
Recognition of the news media censoring a US Military Veterans words is proof the silent demons is the reason no one hears us.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
465 Packers falls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217