The mind plays games

The mind plays games
Newspapers want controversy to draw more readers and inform the readers that they have of the unbiased truth no matter whom it hurts. TBI took my mind from an accident right out or Parris Island boot camp. To this day I have no memory of boot camp or growing up. I was sent back to active duty with the mind of a ten year old. My way of coping was to intimidate people around me to try to fit in. It worked for a while but soon other Marine’s would comment on my trying to impersonate their personalities. I became very conscious of these facts and started to just learn how to do my MOS and any other subject that came my way. Friends were easy to make and keep but my goal had to be learning how to be a US Marne at all costs. I was sent over seas for the start of my 31 months over there. In and out of combat zone to do stupid things because I thought the MC believed me as well trained to fit the missions. It was my lack of memory and my willingness go topped by the fact I was totally expendable to do a job that just required a US Marine on the mission. My first kill in hand-to-hand combat near the end of my tour finally made me feel qualified to be called a US Marine. I came home to find a nation (the USA) that despised my kind and was not afraid to demonstrate the fact. So naive was I that when a girl spit on me at the SF airport believing it was the type of welcome I smiled and thanked her. Years later finding the truth were despicable in my mind not of what she did but knowing that I was so dumb. Out of all that I thought that I learned the newspapers censoring not only controversial topics but the fact that I am a candidate for NH State Senate District 21 seems to be taboo for the editors to mention to their readers. My wife and I put our life savings out to purchase waterfront land for a Veteran resort-chapel to help US Military Veterans in trouble just like me come home mentally and physically. The news media has made the public assume the danger that exists in me justifying their censoring the facts that are of great concern to the US Public.
PTSD and TBI affect my mind, while a loss of most hearing in both ears and a broken back from my participation in more than one Vietnam offensive wrap up my effort to be a good US Citizen. I am a 100% disabled US Marine that came home trying to belong. People tell me every day that I mooch off of public assistance and live a great life with a pension. I am sixty years old and it gets tried of hearing from citizens how my life is to them. VA doctors that have never seen what I have done question my ethics as they once did treat me. NH and the VA stop my medical care for combat related disabilities to stop my writing these censored opinion letters and the news media justifies censor the public being informed.
A danger that volunteers every day to help other US citizens as this volunteering has been my way to accept coming home to a nation were we are not accepted. The news media against all their ethical and moral codes believe and so it must be true we should only come home in a box or not at all. I thought running for public elected government office was a right all citizens had. Controversy only exits if the news media can make a profit from it. We that came home alive do not commit suicide because we are weak but to save the nation we love from us.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
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