What right did I have to say who lives and dies?

What right did I have to say who lives and dies?
It is like a thought that never goes away and that I never think of. It just does not make since. A sergeant in the Marine Corps (with the mental age of a 10-yr-old the result of a TBI right out of boot camp that took my past memory completely and forever) deciding which Marine would live or die from the mission that I would assign. No fear, no compassion for the lives of others, the mission always came first as other Marines lives depended on our success. In this free society some people choose to believe it is their right to censor or block other citizens from reading other people’s opinion letters of government wrongs. Editors, government officials and yes even righteous do good-errs feel freedom gives them the right to deprive US citizens being harmed by government wrongs from freely telling others. These same US citizens feel it is their god given power to stop the medical care for a service connected disabled US military veteran until that disabled Marine obey the orders of our trusted government officials. Yes God is telling the people that US Marine’s are responsible for the uncivilized behavior no matter if the safety and freedom of others was the reason. Killing others in combat is only justifiable back here if it is done in a reasonable manner even at the cost of one’s own survival.
A Dumb A-ss Marine does not have the right to put a case of a brother judge criminally violating the Constitution to enable the Madbury NH selectmen to steal from local residents for personal gain using the trusted power of government. My freedom and thoughts made me believe it was my obligation to expose government wrongs even if it is our highest representatives of the law doing wrong. The people are telling me that I am wrong as they willingly allow our government to stop my medical cares for combat related disabilities and no one cares. If they do care they are too afraid to speak up, as government retribution will come down on them also. A US Marine now inflicted with PTSD is unknown medical territory as to how TBI will create mental stability. A broken back from one Vietnam offensive and a loss of hearing in both ears from another Vietnam offensive tell me how wrong it is for me to come back and think that my rights are the same as you civilized citizens. What do I think gave me the right to decide who should live or die?
Newspapers and government officials fill the public’s belief of the danger mentally unstable citizens such as this one is to win support. Civilized society does not make since to me for only loss to the majority will be gained by letting so few do so much harm to so many. It is like the thought that never goes away and no one can comprehend because they stop my medical care. The VA does not care about the disabled veteran only pleasing those that approve their budget. People assume power and inflict their belief on who should live or die because every thing we do in life affects others.
Ask yourself what right does a newspaper have to stop a disabled veteran from telling the world the Veterans Administration has stopped my medical care for combat related disabilities. Do you believe in a free society US Marines should be allowed to come home? PTSD-TBI is most likely what stopped me from realizing it was my duty to commit suicide before putting you all through all this wrongs. It is the thought that never goes away.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semepr Fi
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