disabled

You do not look disabled.
I do not have what the general public can see or relate to as being a disabled US citizen. Yesterday my wife made a comment about a newspaper article many years ago when I got hit by a car in Dover NH “Marine cries in street” as I attempted to cross a busy Boston crosswalk. PTSD and how to walk in a society that defines the same unseen, never to be real to those that were never there effects of war with a different title after each crisis. (WWII battle fatigue) A broken vertebra in my lower back cause great pain but it does not stop me from helping other people for what is the purpose if we do not give to help make life better for others. I cannot understand conversations to me as the voice changes frequency many times with each word leaving many blanks to be filled in with my imagination as others talk. My loss of hearing came from being blown off a runway during a Vietnam Offensive. The sudden loud, unexpected noise that makes me duck or sometimes travel into my other world is as real today as when it meant survival from enemy danger. What is real to one person is many times the joke to society that relies so heavily on the unbiased truth printed in our newspapers informing the public of leaches on society such as this crying 100% disabled US Marine.
I read an article by Ken Smith yesterday with the line “if you came right out and said you were having Flashbacks you risked getting tossed in the cracker bin”. The reality being this is the feeling many US Veterans get when dealing with the VA even today. I learned to deal with my PTSD with no memory from TBI another service connected disability by secret to keep confinement and medication taking the mind as a VA solution under the rule safety of the public first. US Military veterans realize we came back from death to be captured for eternity by VA medication if we let the silent demons to be seen. Ken Smith wrote a book on PTSD from his own experiences in Vietnam. The solution is Ken’s way of dealing with it but from what I read my own track was very similar as I believe the unknown veteran right beside you on the street may have been the same. The general public does not see my PTSD, TBI, Loss of Hearing or my Broken Back but does that give the VA the right to stop my medical care to aid the NH government to prevent my writing opinion letters. The biased editors slowly gain public support with character assignation through articles describing a flashback during an emergency crisis as a crying Marine.
Response opinion letters are censored to prevent the public from being informed disabled US Marines are citizens also. Suicide is real but by my writing does get law enforcement at my door with weapons drawn to enflame the neighbor hood to gain support to eliminate a leach. Embarrassment and anger enflames the family after the law leaves to force isolation and homelessness for the general public cannot relate to a disabled US citizen as battle fatigue, PTSD or what ever title is something only crying US Military Veterans are forced to concur on their own.
Safety of the Public is a catch twenty-two Law enforcement free for all.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
465 Packers falls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217