Respone to Guard Suicide

Response to Guard Suicide
Battle Fatigue, PTSD or what ever you want to label it US Military that are lucky enough to return react to it each in their own way. US Military that were never in country or if they were never got out side the perimeter wire or ran from incoming justify home in their own way. The entire point is everyone reacts and accepts what we did in the individual’s own mind. US Citizens that never served in our military have any idea what it is like to know this is the last second of your life while waiting for the mission to begin and forget any safety or reason not to give your life to complete the mission once it begins. My hardest part was coming back to the world 31 months later with no memory of ever being here before from my TBI before I left on my tour. I came back later to a world that called me a baby killer as I learned from other Veterans silence of our life over there must be kept to rejoin this civilized society. To hear a citizen see news reports comment on the cruel actions of our military was a daily start to my constant reminder of events triggered questioning why it had to be me, not someone with more to give back here that lived. My cruel actions of survival against an enemy with out civil limitation trying to kill or capture me were justified in my mind by the pride of being a US Marine that gave to keep the USA free. Re living that some call flashbacks happen as if they are events of today happening at this very moment that US citizens cannot even conceive as possible human events. VA doctors and even family member over time classify us as losers that wasted good potential as we revert back to survival reactions in this civilized society that believes with time we should grow out of it. Jail or homelessness will be the civilized societies eventual sentence for not letting go of the cruel and in human events we caused for safety of others trumps all. VA doctors will use medication to take our minds away as their solution to keep with in the budget set to treat us. Each war or conflict has it’s own classification for those US Military unwilling to come back to the real world “USA” but the root of the situation is civilized society just does not want to understand the real life reality that there is no safety in war.
The VA stops my medical care for combat related disabilities and you say it is me that is putting the safety of the community in jeopardy. I write what our Constitution obligates every US Citizen to do “Abolish any government official or judge that violates our guaranteed highest law the Constitution. The NH Supreme Court refused to hear a case presented to them of Judge Peter Fauver criminally violation the Constitution to enable the Madbury NH selectmen to steal land from local resident for self gain. Where does a 100% disabled US Marine go when his entire life is taken for doing what the civilized society rules and laws obligates us to do? For the United States of America to allow what the VA and NH government is doing each of us must react in our own way.
Newspapers across the USA believe censoring the words of someone so disturbed will prevent the danger that they use to harm my character in the public eye. We are different than when we left, so understand that what we did was for defending and protecting our Constitution against a ruthless enemy. I refuse to be violent or violate the law so this justifies what this civilized society is doing to me.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
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