Greenland New Hampshire

Paranoid
What have I become? Riding down to coffee this morning a new dark SUV pulled out from a side street just after I left my driveway. I could see it hanging back so as not to let me identify it as a cop. The State and local police harassment may take it toll and what is the consequence for theirs or my actions taken? Do law enforcement protect and serve the public as originally designed or has their position taken to enforce the strong arm of government to eliminate those that openly speak of wrongs. I go to bed at night waiting for that after hours knock on my door, as Law enforcement is there to take me away. It has happen several times over the years to attempt to silence my free speech. I refuse to be violent disrupting their attempts to make me to break the law to give just cause for public support to accept the consequence they want to be the outcome. I have no idea if the SUV was a cop or just innocent people going for a newspaper to read the unbiased facts of yesterday.
I am a 100% disabled US Marine with Combat support injuries that effect my ever day back here in the real world (USA). My medical care has been stopped except for useless appointment to fluff my record file. I went to the VA Hospital yesterday and the doctors and people working there are friendly, helpful and the best anyone could ask for. They treat only what the Veterans Administration tells them that they can. I live every day with the fact I still have no memory of life growing up before the MC. I remember and forget things at random. PTSD is a daily diagnosis that disrupts my day at any unknown moment and people around me will not even know except my character changes. I endure the pain of my broken back from one Vietnam offensive to volunteer to help others for that is what we are fighting for. My serious loss of hearing in both ears affects my interpretation of what others are saying at times as back ground noise is deadly to my abilities from being blown up and off runways during another Vietnam offensive.
Newspapers do not believe the public can be made aware of my life. The danger and fear that the NH Government and VA officials want instilled in the public perception of my character is clear government retribution. What causes a US citizen to snap? Could it be one last thing to do before retiring from law enforcement to miss use the law to harass and destroy a person believed is not good enough to live in your town? Could it be an illegally obtained search warrant that the NH Attorney General will not release to the public for the truth of law enforcement wrongs is covered up by the Blue Wall shield of protection.
My opinion letters do not say the right thing so that is a great reason not to inform the public of the other side. They will tell you my medical care being stopped is all in my head. They will tell you the record is sealed for the public’s safety.
What have I become? Now I understand why many in country commit suicide rather than come back and expose our loved ones to the reality of what the USA is becoming. Paranoid or a mental treatment for combat related disabilities has been stopped until I relinquish my freedom of speech of government wrongs. What are the Consequences and who is responsible. That rogue cop that is the pride of the community or the struggling citizen not welcome is something to think of. Do not take this letter wrong. Tell the public both sides so we can decide for our self’s.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
465 Packers falls rd Lee NH 03824 603-781-3839