Volunteering to help people
It feels different as one volunteer to help other people. Even citizens that you do not even know it just seems different. Volunteering is the best way to live for to make life better for all even at one’s own expense brings a harmony in not only your own mind but also all around you glows. I volunteered yesterday to help citizens that I knew not well but not friends either. I hope some day maybe they will be friends for friendship is the catalyst to a successful rewarding peace in your own mind. I am talking about how the pain from my disabilities feels different from the daily struggle to accept it. I do not tell people that I am disabled because they would not accept my help. Even people that are struggling and need some assistance in some way will not let a disabled person help. Well most people are like that.
I do many things that because of my broken back from one Vietnam offensive should not be doing. Enduring the pain to make life easier for others also gives me a chance to accept better US Military gave their lives and my volunteering may be makes it not to be in vain. Most of my hearing in both ears has been diminished from another Vietnam offensive causing me to miss interpret what a lot of the conversations around me are about. I find most people get angry when they have to repeat because they believe you do not pay attention. I have to accept that my life is different as my PTSD complemented by my TBI puts me in a position that others cannot accept. It is the old saying people are hesitant to be around disabled people for fear they themselves may catch it. I create my own pain so the VA stopping my medical care is justifiable as they have warned me many times to stop writing opinion letters of government wrongs.
I am running for ORSB and it is important to me that the voters know what I am about and where I came from. I am a 100% disabled US Marine from the Vietnam Conflict era. God the shooting pain and delusional depressed thoughts just make me hesitant to lay down. My physical condition and the pain is not greater or less from volunteering. Volunteering just dignifies to me my coming back alive when so many better than I gave their lives for this freedom. Our country and every citizen in it is allowing government personal to use military disabilities to control freedom of speech to what end. The thousand of disabled US Military Veterans being denied in some way if not completely medical (Physical and mental) with out any one seeing or speaking out about it just does not seem right. Great efforts are put out to quit public outrage about the neglect for today’s veterans and in a few years those will be ignored and forgotten about just as the past are now.
The news media censors my words for the danger they impress on the public this 100% disabled US Marine is. In my eyes the voters should have a right to know what they may have lost by government formed ignorant voters. It just feels different the directions to kill my self before the enemy takes me again. Where am I as there has to be a way to get out of this place? Next stop is Vietnam!
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
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