Veterans Page Union Leader

I appoligize I was having a flashback and put the same letter in

Veterans Page Union Leader
I feel suicidal today. Don’t worry I will not do it and if I do I will not tell you about it myself. It is just a feeling in my body today as last night was a rough one of constantly being a US Marine with no end. The constant pounding head pain today feels as if my nose will burst again with blood. Already I can see this letter too graphic to inform the public. It is like “Honoring the Stars and Stripes” on the Veterans page is written to comfort non-veterans by praising those that were willing to go. Words of US Military veterans in trouble means nothing to the public or politicians unless it is personally connected or will benefit them. I feel suicidal and would see calling the VA suicide hotline but they harass me so much how can I let them win? NH government officials and the Veterans Administration emphasize how much of a danger to the public that I am. They stop my medical care for combat related disabilities ignored by the veteran’s page. My opinion letters of government wrongs describing the harsh cruel effects of being a US Military veteran back here in a world that cannot accept us are censored. Praising a person like UL Veterans editor for telling stories about veterans is not like a real US Military Veteran 100% disabled from combat missions being helped. I wish you could feel the glory and at the same time the shame at the edge of every thought laying in a benjo ditch waiting for the “Gooks” to pass for under orders from command my M-16 was not locked and loaded before the eminent danger of death happen. 17 year-old US Marine with TBI is given the power of American Advisor on convoys delivering surplus supplies to friendly camps deep in the bush. Having no memory of any part of life this danger was my belief to be the normal progression of each day. I am a US Marine and Kill is the first word in a Marine’s vocabulary.
Elections to the Oyster River School Board are coming up and my chances of winning grow positive every day. Do the children in our schools have the right to learn what military service will entail? A woman asked if the candidates if elected would approve councilors for elementary students move into middle school. These children are only a few years younger than my age killing other human beings. You as a society enabled by newspapers stories on Veterans pages don’t even have a clue to real life. The 19 year-old soldier from NH that died yesterday in his barracks after returning from Iraq war zone. The harsh reality of the ignorant civilized society will not allow graphic letters like this so to see the silent demons are never allowed for us to say. At the Candidates student forum I told the children how the Madbury NH selectmen use the trusted power of the people to take from local resident for their own personal gain. I told the children of the NH Supreme Court refusing to hear a case of criminal acts by judge Peter Fauver to intentionally harm the public. These forums will be televised to the public so why does the editors censor the facts. I told the student to always be willing to speaking openly of government wrongs even if they put you in jail as they did me. The opinion of the people is the most important part of what we the US Military give our lives for.
Does the Oyster River community have the right to hear my words? The shame of coming back alive must be made a part of the Veterans page of the UL. My feelings go untreated as they stop my medical care to stop my freedom of speech.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper fi
465 Packers falls rd Lee NH 03824 603-781-3839