So much to live for

So much to live for
I read a story about volunteers doing over thirty thousand in repairs to a disabled combat Marine’s home in California. The VA justice out reach program or maybe the VA hiring homeless veterans to give them a start back here in the world after what they did is two other stories I read today. It is not like people do not care and/or are not giving to help where they can. I agree US Military Veterans deserve no more than the average person gets for that is what equal under the law means. Equal justice also means we the US Military Veteran or god forbid the disabled ones are ignored because our situation will not bring headlines to the politician. I publicly state that the VA stops my medical care for combat related disabilities until I stop writing opinion letters of the NH Supreme Courts open defiance of our Constitution. Government policy cannot ever control the health of any citizen until they obey government authority. The newspapers use the line safety of the community not to print my opinion letters of government wrongs.
PTSD sometimes makes US Military Veterans stranded back here in the world with out care to re-enact. The Marine from Maine that killed his wife in NC or the soldier in the park out west that killed a park ranger the news persecutes but fails to realize that we are people also. Some dissociates from the world to protect loves ones from seeing what we are. Others suck it up and participate in civilized society attempting to cover-up the PTSD episodes to live a normal life. The VA uses Red Flags and doctors that have never been there to treat with book knowledge and suspicions of our facts are inconcivable. The VA rejects treating some on technical issues of not showing symptoms until years after discharge. Others are rejected for refusing to be put under medication as a VA tool to silence the voice. The newspapers censor our words, as they believe it is inconceivable to have done the facts we talk about. The uncivilized inhuman acts that we did, we live with!
I have TBI complicated with PTSD, as my first five years out were living chaos trying to see back here was different. The military dropped me into a world that I did not belong. I have a broken back received during one Vietnam offensive and a loss of hearing in both ears from being blown off the runway during another offensive. Things have not changed. The politicians and news talks about changes to help US Military Veterans but the number helped compared to the number lost or jailed far exceeds the credit they take. Headlines blare for the stories of good but to censor the words of those documenting the wrongs encompasses a whole new world.
You know what the amazing part is that sitting here writing this letter my mind is telling me to kill myself to justify how wrong it was for me to come back alive. The newspapers want the public to believe the danger to public safety this disabled US Military Veteran is. Think of how many Wes’s are on the other side of the street where politicians and government see no benefit in helping.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
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